Hello to you all,
I was wary today of the fact that there are some of you out there who are probably thinking of me and wondering what's happening and I wanted to let you know that I have my wonderful mum here at home at last! She came home from the hospice on Friday and was okay, and on Saturday we had a few visitors and mum managed to have a few short conversations with people - and then we sat in the kitchen/diner (her bedroom is off this room) and she could hear talking and reminiscing while she dozed. Mum had a poor day on Sunday and she was quite agitated and seemingly distressed, but towards the evening, she became more peaceful and became sleepy. During the night, she was talking a little bit and sleeping too.
On Monday morning, she was peaceful and responsive with her smile, eyebrows and little nods of the head, but I had great difficulty in getting her to swallow the morphine capsule (four attempts) so I arranged for the syringe driver to be put in later on in the day. Those of you who know me will know that although mum didn't have any chemo or radiotherapy, pain was not an option!!! We held pain relief and humour at the top of our 'wish list'!
During the night last night - I had the honour of being the one she asked for and when I came down (after 2 hours of sleep) she wanted to tell me a joke and couldn't remember the punchline.....! God I love her so much.... I sang her a couple of songs which she absolutely loved (smiles, nods, hand holding) and then I played her our special song 'If That's What It Takes' by Celine Dion and I cried my silly heart out....but it was lovely just being with her, just the two of us.
Today she has been responsive - on and off - and is very peaceful. I have played her lots of her favourite songs and with some of her friends, have sung one or two. My mum loves it when people sing - any kind of song, pop, rock, reggae or even Christmas carols.
I wanted to share this very special time with you all and ask that you think of me tonight, it makes such a difference to know you're all here for me.
Love, Hannah xxxxx
