I decided to write this blog as, like most of us with cancer, I'm not sure whether it will be my last christmas and new year.
Last year I was in remission and we had a busy time over the holiday period as my son and his family came over unexpectedly from LA. We had all our family down on one day and all hers on the next. My next check up showed my CA 125 count had gone up considerable, so I started chemo agin in April, and eventually had what was supposed to be the last in Nov, but on going back after 6 weeks my count is going up again already. In December 2008 we had booked a special 6 week holiday (3 weeks cruise to the States, then 3 weeks stop in california, culminating with a visit to our son and his family. We leave on jan 10th, with no insurance as all teh companies I have tried aren't interested... it is too long in the states to be viable! If my doctor has said go and make the most of it why can't I get the support of the people that should help not hinder this trip, which I know will be my last chance to visit my son and grandson.
We had a quiet Christmas day this year just with our daughter and her family, then visited my husbands family on boxing day, and two of my 3 siblings the next day. On coming home my husband has been working hard so he is all up to date for the holiday, and I've found it very strange feeling fit to work, but now having retired from my business while I could, having nothing much to do.
Last night was New year's eve, and we had our oldest friends round for a quiet start to the New year. Is this going to be my last.....
I now have my holiday looming large, andthe prospect when I come home of a CT scan and chemo again. I started taking Essiac as I now feel that I must try anything I can to beat this insidious thing in my body. When the chemo starts again I know that the Oncologist will tell me to stop. Who knows, perhaps when I come back (after 8 weeks of taking it) my levels may be low again and the scan will show nothing. We can only hope................................
