Well, here I am back at home after my weeks away. Holiday all but forgotten about after a week with my daughter, doing the school runs for her girls while she is on teaching practice.
It's lovely having time at home, but then the brain starts again - what is that ache in my lower tummy, what about the pain in my side... how do you convince your self the cancer is not back when you are in remission. Every little pain makes you worry, so not enough sleep to make things worse.
Not enough confidence to go out far or for long on my own, just in case I can't get back home. The new electric bike helps, at least I get some excercise, and can put the engine on when I get too breathless, but so used to only going out when I need something done, that I find it difficult to realise that now I have time to go out whenever I want to - how do you change the habits of a lifetime to make the most of the time you've got left?
Any advice will be helpful.
Love n hugs
Viv
