I have been trying to keep myself busy, despite feeling so breathelss and tiring easily. Thursday saw us at the hospital, and my count is down slightly, so a week of treatment again this week. I decided that as the family have been too busy to come down to us we would go and see them all this weekend. I knew my daughter was partying Saturday night, so offered to babysit, and my grandaughters were so pleased, it was wonderful and made my feel worth something again. Mind you by the time I'd got them to bed and done stories I was ready for bed myself!
I suggested we visit my son today, but they wanted a day out, so we all got together in Henley (my daughter and her family, as well as my son and his) and had lunch in Pizza express (I couldn't eat it all), then went to the Wind in the Willows Museum, which the 4 girls really enjoyed. It made me realise just how weary I feel. Is it just because I'm out of condition, or is it the cancer? Whatever, I wish it would get better as I am now feeling depressed, which I haven't felt in the 4 years since I've been bad. My hair is falling out, which is not helping, the leaflets say hair thinning after the 2nd treatment. Mine is coming out in handfuls after 1 - what happens next? I'll ask tomorrow when I'm at the hospital.... at least it gives me something to do all week!
