When I was diagnosed with breast cancer, my work knew. Two weeks later, one of the colleague was diagnosed with esophagus??? in his food tube which was 7 cm. He was so upset and wonder why???? He told me that he was not drink any alcohol, did not eat meat, did not smoke...he was so down. I remembered his sad face.
We were talking about medications, treatment and all sort e.g. his background even we did not know each other before. Cut the story short,, he died last Sunday and his funeral was on Thursday. His old parents who are in their 80s were there, they had lost one son a few years ago and now they have to lose the eldest son. His girlfriend flew from Malaysia to be see him died.
I feel guilty that I am still here. What if..it were me instead of him. I am down because life is so unexpected. I am now live with fear that one day this cancer will be back. Someone I know yesterday told me that her mother had cancer four times!!!! How can I live through that\/???
