today i said goodbye to my dear friend Mal. With sadness and a heavy heart i bid him farewell. Mal was a part of so many peoples lives and he showed me that no matter your age you can always do with one more friend. I am filled with so much sadness for the friend i cannot replace. i recieved the news of his death before christmass and today we buried him . goodbye did not seem good enough and i am left feeling sad and lost.
What am i to do? i am carer for my terminally ill mum (last stages of bowel cancer) and i feel out of my depth. I am scared of letting her down. infact iam just plain old scared. i have four strong brothers who could help out but choose not too. when does the pain stop???? am i selfish???? or have i just got the New Year blues????
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