I tried to write down how I was feeling last night but pressed something and everything I had so lovingly written disapeared into cyber space......
I understand I have not been diagnosed with cervicle cancer and that severe changes could be easily treated, but this does not seem to be reaching whatever part of my brain that makes me unable to sleep due to worrying how my daughters will cope if I am not here...
My head is spinning with what ifs...
I had my smear results last week (Wed) and have my colposcopy booked for Tues. My Husband is in the Forces and is away, and he never seems to be able to talk. He is aware of what happening but I feel really unsupported. Tues just seems so far away, I feel like I need to know now..
Since My smear results every pain every twinge I thought was harmless feels like its eating away inside me...
I feel guilty for feeling this way as I know that there are people who are a lot worse off than me but i cant shake this feeling..
Am I normal........
