Tomorrow will be the 4 week anniversary of my dad passing away. I don’t even know if the word anniversary is appropriate because to me, that’s a word for happy celebrations. The past 4 weeks have been the worst of my life and at 17 years old, I’ve never experienced anything like this. Of course a lot of people don’t experience the death of loved ones until they’re a lot older – lucky them. But after holding my dad’s hand as he passed away in front of us, finding out he had to have an autopsy, arranging the funeral with my mum, going to visit him in the funeral directors every day and then the funeral itself... I admit my head is in a bit of a mess. After missing 3 weeks of school, I have a lot to catch up on which is stressful in itself but not only that; there is university stuff to sort out which is what my Dad would be helping me with now. I know people go through bad things in life and they say there is always someone worse off that you, but this has turned my world upside down if you like. The whole point of me writing all this is because, if I hadn’t have found this site just after my dad was diagnosed last year I think I would be 100x worse than I am now. Everyone seems to get on well on here, but there are always a couple of people who you’ll click with the most and if they’re reading this, they’ll know who they are. I just wanna say it is Trudy on here who has helped me in so many ways especially after texting me regularly when I was living in the hospital with Dad to see if I was ok and was always a phone call away to talk to or cry to. It just showed to me what a fantastic friend she is to me who I never want to lose. She doesn’t realise what a great help she is and she really should!! So hopefully this public announcement will make her see sense and not increase her head size J There are others of course who have been here for me and I’m so grateful and I’ll be here for you too if you need me. I still miss Dad everyday and it is hard to accept he’s no longer here, everyone who has lost someone will agree. But I will try and stay strong and make Dad proud of me. xxxxx
