Well as the title says I've not done this before but I thought I'd give it a go.
I've been a member of this site for some while now, I joined whilst I was going through treatment, I did however find it hard to be on here at times, I guess it reminded me that sometimes it doesn't all work out, and at the time I was feeling very low. However, I am pleased to say that I'm not feeling so low now, I've been in remission for a whole three months.
Being is remission is great, the best feeling ever I guess, I seem to have spent pretty much all my adult life either fighting cancer or being remission, not quite made it to the all clear stage. However, sometimes I think I am move scared of the cancer coming back than I was when I had it. I lie awake at night worrying about what I will decide to do if it comes back.
Throughout all this my partner has been ace, the best of the best however sometimes I think he thinks well your not having treatment, your not ill stop worrying, stop wondering about the 'what ifs', I wish I could just explain to him that it isn't that simple and I know he thinks like that because he thinks that it will do me good but it's not.
This morning I lost my rag with him over there being no milk in the fridge, completely pathetic I know but sometimes, he forgets about cancer and the problem is I don't.
Anyways, kinda rambled on a bit.
TTFN
