After probably a year of suffering with a 'lump' in my throat and difficulty swallowing I finally took the decision to call the doctor. As we are in Covid times this was a case of phoning surgery, explain the symptoms, and if the lady on the other end thinks its urgent enough they get a doctor to call back. I explained that it was not urgent and I did not want the Doctor thinking it was.
Less than an hour later the Doc calls back, "what are your symptoms Mr Nash?"
Difficulty swallowing, lump in throat, tiredness, constipation, jeez i could write a book on how I feel at the moment.
The verdict, I need an Endoscope down the throat, not totally unexpected as I have had this procedure twice before as I have 'Barratts', so here we go again. Funny enough the last time I had it down The consultant (newby) read the result and told me to go home and sort out my affairs with family and work. What the hell, shock, tears, fear, dissapointment in myself. But not totally unexpected, after all my mum died of Leukemia, two brothers died of Cancer, and yes I was on radar with Cardiff Genetics, doing research in familial cancer. Well I've scored there haven't I.
Anyway the appointment for the Endoscopy came through within a week, do I want this, is there Covid in Hospital, what are my chances of catching it, have i finished stitching the soft top on my merc. Will I still be able to work, should have retired already.
Surprisingly I was quite calm going in for the Endoscopy, I practised some mind and breathing yoga before going in, was awake through the whole procedure , Yes I did have a sedative, but as normal it does not do much for me.
Waiting in waiting room after I was pleased to see we won a gold in diving, well done lads, then Petty in the pool, another gold. Still not feeling sleepy.
Consultant waits until my wife comes in to pick me up to give us the results, which I know must be bad. I have a large growth in the gullet, fed up of trying to spell Oeshopagus 
Wow, quite calm really, not taken it all in, or expecting it, either way I am ok.
