I'm so sick of waiting and waiting!!
I thought i had been "lucky" with my cancer as the first time round I didn't even know it was cancer until I'd had surgery to remove it! (We'd thought it was benign) then for 5 years i had clear scans and thought was just starting to think it was all behind me.
Then a scan shows potential recurrence. I go see the orthopaedics team who did my op 5 years previously and they say it might not be that, but they'll do a biopsy to check. Ultrasound tech says it looks like a dodgy lymph node - but not cancer and nothing too serious - so I started to feel relief. Then the biopsy results are in and it shows no evidence of similarity to my type of cancer. Yay! But, they still don't know what it actually is.
They decide it needs to come out anyway, just in case. So I have the op and then they send it off for investigation. Once again, it's not consistent with the cancer I had before, so they reckon it's fine. At this point I feel like I'm in the clear and just need to focus on recovering from the op. It's taking a long time and been really painful as the skin is so damaged from radiotherapy 5 years previous.
I go for a post-op check up assuming they'll just be checking the wound and sending me on my way but nope. They tell me that they've now identified what it was (I didn't even know they were still looking into it) and that it's a second cancer, probably caused by the radiotherapy.
So that's not ideal, but at least it's out.
Except my most recent MRI looks as though there is still something in there, but they don't know what. So, back to biopsies and ultrasounds to see if they can figure it out. And more waiting for me. Waiting for appointments, waiting for results, waiting for follow up appointments.
It's really affecting my mental health, I'm useless at work but don't think it'll really benefit me to take time off. My depression is flaring up big time and the cherry on top is I've also caught the flu from my nephew. Just feeling so fed up right now
