after going to the hospital yesterday for my pre med, i am having a lumpectomy on 23rd november. I was very emotional last night and it has spilled over to this morning. I am so upset cos next week i have to have this operation, its almost reality and i dont know how i am going to get myself through this, just carnt see it at the moment, im scared of the op ,im scared of the result's two weeks after. I work in a large suppermarket and this morning i lost control and the tears flowed, i have had to come home as i couldnt face the day at work, being all smiley and polite serving people, just dont want to do that today. somehow just got to get myself to a good place ready to face next friday .
