What now?

Hi there, I can empathise with you on this.  I felt really frightened when treatment was finished.  I felt as if my security blanket had been taken away.  I know a lot of people feel this way, so you are not alone.  I also think the fear of recurrence lives with everybody who has suffered cancer, but it does ease a bit in time.  I now think along the lines of, well I no longer need treatment, so things must be looking good.  It is hard, but I'm sure you'll relax a bit more given time.  Best wishes, Christine xx

Thanks Christine

Nice to have some comforting words before bed time, its nice to be able to put thoughts on here and know people will understand

xx

Hi,  seams to me everyone thinks once treatment is over that that should be it, should be fine get on with life.

Personally I dont think so,

The treatments are not plesant and its like being in a war zone and I think when its all over is when we get all the emotional stuff landing on us. I'm only at the start of my treatment and already know they can knock the stuffing out of you  because lets face it you start of feeling normal then have the meds and feel ill!

Think when its all over you need time to come to terms with it all and try to get some kind of handel on it. Once you've had it dont think the fear of it returing will ever really leave the back of your mind, especially at night when the monsters under the bed peak out so to speak.

Don't know what to say to help lesson the fear, but maybe just talking about it and confronting it can help a little. I do know that your not alone with this, and think its just normal after what you've been through. Family and friends may not understand but anyone who's had c of any kind will.

Thinking of you

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Thanks for your kind words

Like you say night time is the worse time for me, i do have a great family but feel i can't keep talking about it or if i do i get a you will be fine answer which is nice but would rather go deeper than that.

I hope you get on ok

Best wishes

Emma.