I find myself walking home from the toddler group and looking at the lovely trees, losing their golden brown leaves and thinking...
'only 5 days to go really, if i discount today, then just Wednesday through to Sunday, i'm discounting Monday too, because that's D-Day.'
I'm at work again tomorrow morning, then seeing a friend for the afternoon, then Thursday off with hubby, then Friday work again. I think Saturday and Sunday will be hard, hubby is at work all weekend so i'm on my own. Might try to go swimming with little one.
I can't help but cry all the time at the moment, one minute i'm fine, the next i cry at what i may never see or have in the future. Talk about melodramatic. I feel so guilty, there are people today, people on this site even, who are going through far worse, and i'm being such a wimp.
On the proactive side, morbid as it may be, i checked out what we are covered for on the life insurance and also the critical illness insurance. If the asolute worst happens i want to know that hubby and baby will be safe in the house without having to worry about money. I'm so glad we took those policies out, nothing beats peace of mind. We are covered if the very worst happened and also we are covered if i get diagnosed with anything invasive, but if it's non-invasive then we are not. I suppose that makes sense really, as 'non-invasive' doesn't sound as serious.
Signing off for now, off to give mummy cuddles
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