About to say good bye to my Mum as she heads off to look after my grandma,if bone cancer. Dreading it. the four days shes away feels soo long but the days she is back feel like a couple of hours. im really scared about my grandma about the thought that the chemo wont work and she'll die :(
It took my mum years to get over my grandads death so what if her mum dies. it's really fustrating for my grandma, one day shes on a complete high but on the next shes on a low. And whats also fustraiting is i dont know what chemo is when ever my mum and dad talk about it its always privatly without us knowing. my mum as to have to give up her job whislt my grandma gets better (but they will all ways have a space open when she wants to come back) beacuse my dad is the only on in the family that can drive, mum has to take a couch and train, so my nana pays for that and the money my mum losses out on.
its nearly my birthday and im worried that my mum isnt going to be there (as well on my dads) birthdays in our familys is propaly one of the times in the year when we spend the most money on a family day out. Another thing that my mum is stressed about is 2 months ago i ingryed my wrist and it still hasent fully recovered, so i have to go to phsiphoy each week and she always wants to be there for that. over the last six months my apprecation has grown for my mum, because of all the time she makes way for us eventhough shes got other things to worry about,my apprecation for my dad has also grown having to look after three kids by himself (also my other grandma who has come to live with us)
i just hope soon it will all be over and everything would be back to normal
