I’ve never been one for writing anything but here goes …
We are just an ordinary family from East Midlands area who spent life growing up in a mining village . My dad used to work in our local mine before he got made redundant from the pits once they all closed . Very hard time for him as that is all he knew but dad being dad brushed himself off and carried on with securing new jobs and working hard each day to provide all he could for us . Myself and my brother had the normal up bringing was kept in line of stepped out of line and praised for achievements . We are a very close family also have each other’s backs always there to support each other but never really been good and talking about our true emotions with each other .
fast track to today I’m 34 years old with an amazing husband and two amazing children. Over the past couple of weeks my dad’s mobility has become unbalanced this seemed extremely odd to us so dad dragged himself to the doctors to ask for some tests. He visited the doctors a number of times over the past few weeks to be told everything was ok because his bloods came back normal . My dad persisted as he knew something wasn’t right so the doctor requested an MRI scan on his spine. Dad went to his appointment for his scan and came back home to wait a response…. During the week he seems too be worsening and on Thursday after my mum called to say dad’s fallen we decided he needed to visit A&E . Once I explained what had been going off the nurse decided that she would admit him for further investigations once the paper works had been completed she had a smile on her face and said how strange I’ve literally just admitted another patient with the exact same name good job you ain’t go the same date of birth too . Them she proceeded to take us through to majors to hand over my dads case . During my dads stay in hospital the I pulled up on a number or poor practice to which was acted . I may go into detail on another blog but let’s just keep that there.
my dad had a mri and ct scans during his stay and was told no significant findings but have come across a 3mm lesion on his brain that functions his mobility but it’s of non know malignancy as all his results came back normal and he wasn’t unwell just had what we called a dodgy leg . They discharged dad and sent his scans off for specialists to have a check over .
That now brings me to writing this blog 
my dad was invited to an appointment to talk about his scans that the other hospital sent over . Little did we know that my dad has now been given the unthinkable 6 months . My heart shattered
6 months what from a 3mm lesion they must have it all wrong. At this moment in time as a family we are just trying to process this . I have so many questions for his doctors since being told I haven’t slept a deal and spend every waking hours searching for answers and ways to make it go away or ways to make my dad live longer . I will never give up on my dad and I don’t want him to give up on himself . At this moment I don’t know how to tell my children about their grandad as they are so close to him . I feel so cruel for shattering their little lives and I feel so lost . I want to be there and help everyone especially my dad but my mum , brother and my own children and husband I want to make sure they stay positive and hold out for hope but how when I’m broken inside . I don’t know what or how the road lies ahead but all I know is I need to keep holding onto hope …
