Today is not a good day for me. In fact I am sitting in the garden drinking a bottle of wine and feeling very sorry for myself, I'm not normally a negative person, but having been diagnosed with BC I just don't know how to deal with it. I have my results confirmed tomorrow. My daughter who is six months pregnant with her fourth child is taking me, together with my son. I just feel that I've let them down. I've taken my dog for a walk, which is a big help. She's a yorkshire terrier called Rosie, and I love her to bits, as I do all animals.
You just think this isn't happening today, although today someone said, "Chris you look really good, you've lost weight." I can actually see my cheek bones, which I haven't seen for years.
Anyway, anyone out there for a chat, please get in touch. I think we all know how we are feeling. I suddenly wish I had a partner to share this with. I've been on my own for years and like it this way, but not any more.
I live in the Essex area, and anyone out there who would like to meet up for a coffee or whatever, please get in touch.
Regards.
CHRIS
