I was given some very good advice when I was feeling overwhelmed during my previous cancer journey in 2013. It was to identify the next step ahead and to focus all my attention on that.
I have decided that my current next step needs to be to take advantage of the next couple of weeks to get myself into the best possible condition. I've broken this down into three sections. Food, exercise and emotional wellbeing.
Food has been a struggle the last few weeks as it's been very difficult to eat properly so I've not been eating healthily. The dietician said it was fine for a few days to be eating lots of trifle and ice cream, but as soon as my mouth is healed from the biopsies I want to try to get back to my normal eating. Plus some extra calories as I've been losing weight. So I've been shopping today for plenty of nutritious food.
I've not been able to exercise much the last month. The 28 day course of tablets I was on were making me drowsy and I've had little energy. Now the tablets have finished I'm feeling more like my old self, so I'm slowly trying to do a bit more each day until I get back to my previous activity levels. I've been roughly trying to be active for half and hour and then rest for half an hour. After the shopping I managed some housework and gardening. I got back on my exercise bike, but I kept the speed and resistance slow. I also managed a short low impact online aerobics class. I'm logging it all down and tomorrow I'll try to do a bit more.
My holistic healer has been sending me positivity meditations to try and I've signed up for an online mindfulness course that starts on Monday. H says it's all a lot of nonsense, but I find it helps me and it's not doing any harm.
