So I had the portacath fitted last Thursday and my 1st chemo session will be in 3 days time, this Thursday.
Toni and Guy called me and my wig had arrived. I will be able to collect on Saturday. I've also ordered a couple of headwear items from Amazon, due to arrive this week. It was not too bad shopping for these items although I am not sure how I will feel once they arrive. I bought some false eyelashes last weekend, not a clue how to apply them but I will get some practice in.
Still getting used to my very short chin length hair. I find short hair very high maintenance and while undergoing chemo, I should not blowdry or brush my hair too vigourously and definitely no GHDs for a long time now. Besides I was worried about my hair potentially faliing out in big long clumps so it made sense for me to cut my hair short.
I will be trying the 'scalp cooling' known as the cold cap during my chemotherapy session. This is basically a tight fitting worn during chemo which will cool down the hair follicles and there is a chance it could prevent hair loss. I have heard that the coldness is unbearable but I'll give it a go. I am conscious of the fact that the cold cap may not work, even after a few sessions, which is why I have completed the above shopping list so I have everything ready if happens.
Roll on Thursday!
2 days to go before chemo. This morning, I tried out the false eyelashes. They are so tricky to place on and I feel I have sticks on my eyes. They don't look too bad but quite uncomfortable. Maybe they will be easier to put on if and when my eyelashes do fall out.
I guess I am starting to feel more anxious about Thursday. I've moved my appointment to pick up the wig on Thursday morning rather than wait until Saturday just incase I am unwell from the chemo. It means I'll have to drive to the salon in the morning. I'm still a little sore but hopefully should be ok to drive in a couple of days. I've ordered a wig stand and wig tape from amazon too.
I the guess the 'chemo chat' from last Wednesday is starting to hit me, I'm worried about the painful bones, sore mouth, nails bring discoloured and possibly coming apart... Goodness what is this toxic stuff going into my body?! The tube which connects to my port seems to be visibly bulging and quite uncomfortable. Hopefully it won't be like this for 12 weeks as sneezing or coughing can be quite painful! It still extremely intrusive, it's hard to describe but it's like having a headache underneath the collarbone.
So I will have a wig, nail polish, painkillers on standby .. not sure what else will I need to prepare?
Children normally count down to bug events in 'sleeps'. One more sleep until chemo day. Anxiety is definitely setting in now. Trying to keep my eyes awake as I know that if I fall asleep, the morning will come round too soon.
