It's funny how you take eyelashes and eyebrows for granted and you do not miss them until they're actually gone. It is only the last week or so that I started losing my lashes and today I noticed that I have literally one or two lashes left. My eye feels bare and the upper lid is sticking to the lower eyelid since there is no hair. It is the most strangest feeling. I am not getting on too well with false eyelashes ... The eyebrows are non existent but they are fairly easy to pencil in.
Today I picked up more leaflets from the Radiotherapy Centre. I've plucked up the courage and decided to enrol on a course called 'Moving On'. Hopefully it will help ease my current anxieties about trying to get back to normality and to control my fears about recurrence.
There are so many things on my mind, I am wondering if the painful cording on my arm will ever ease, I cringe every time I see it popping out like a massive vein, my port site is healing well externally but inside, where the port was taken out, is still quite sore. I feel like I have put on so much weight since starting chemo in June, hopefully it will not take me 12 weeks to lose it. Also, not forgetting the bald patch at the top of my head. I know looks is not priority, it is not about being vain but for me, it is an important part of trying to find me again and rebuilding the routing/life I had 5 months ago.
