Hi... I am new to this and have always shied away from support groups in the past but I thought I would try something new.
My biography contains details of my diagnosis of secondary breast cancer. Where I am at the moment is trying to decide whether to start what would be my 5th type of chemotherapy despite my oncologist saying it would have a slim chance of working. I have also had 2 applications to the Interim Cancer Drugs Funds refused for the drug Lapatinib.
I am feeling relatively well at the moment. My gut reaction is to refuse the chemo as I cannot stand the thought of PICC lines again, possible side effects of the chemo and the constant fear of infection due to low blood count. After all - I have been there many times before. But there is always the niggling doubt - what if this is the one that works despite what my oncologist thinks. However the extra weeks that the chemo may give me may be ruinied by the side effects of chemo.
I am consumed by the feelings and thoughts of my family who understand my reasons but I know think that maybe I should give it a shot - after all I probably would think the same if it was them and want them to do anything to live a bit longer.
Anyone in a similar position or who can give some words of wisdom...
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