Day 21 DONE - 12 more to go!
I think all my good humour was used up during the week, I woke up one grumpalump today - that generally means that its getting near 'that time of the month', the one where the kids cower behind the sofas and hubby spends a lot of time in the shed LOL
Still, I went into radiotherapy with the best back and side hair of anyone today - all fresh and light and smelling like a baby.
Seemed to go really quickly today and hubby dropped me off in town and I was able to pay in the cheques and buy some milk and more importantly get on the right bus home ;)
Got in and in "oh bugger" I'd forgotten my teabags, so had to settle for White Tea with Goji Berries......as I am no connoisseur, it just tastes like hot fruit juice LOL
Well my lovely contact at Macmillan telephoned for our weekly chat, oh she cheered me up today! We laughed about wigs and radiotherapy and then she asked if I would be interested in a pamper day being held at Addenrbrooks in June. For 12 ladies with various cancers at different stages and there are 3 beauticians to pamper us and that she went yesterday to check it out and ladies left with over £80 worth of products to try out at home.
Didn't have to think too long, YES!!!!!!!! My radiotherapy will be over and it might be the lift I need - I asked if she thought they would be able to handle me.........brief silence and ..........."yeah, think they will do OK"
Whilst waiting for the bus today, I was trying to think back to Nov when this all started...........how I really dont think I will ever understand or accept it, I can't feel it, you can't see it.........but ultimately it will kill me......I really thought that when the neurosugeon cut my head open, I would wake and he would tell me it was just extra braincells or something ;) even though I have seen the MRI's etc, cos as most you know me by now.....I ask to see everything, my RT images the lot each week....so how I really thought I was gonna get out of this, I don't know.
I like quotes, when I had my brain surgery my little sister bought me a small spiral book called "my little book of thoughts and inspirations". Its my favourite book and I am slowly filling it up. Oh yeah, where was I going with this, I am going to sign off with a different quote each day from now on.
If you can imagine it, you can achieve it; if you can dream it, you can become it.
William Arthur Ward
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Glad the radio went well. I have heard of the pamper days at Addenbrookes, they are supposed to be really really good so I'm pleased you have been offered a chance to go - you deserve it.
I've nothing nothing again today, its 1.20 and apart from getting my 14yr old nephew up of off to school (he stayed over) have done nothing, zilch, nada - well apart from be online all day. This has got to stop - the house has to be tidied now I have a visitor next week ;o))
Deb u r so lovely (I know ............. u think I am being insincere) but I really admire you for what you are going through and the blogs u r posting each day. I, who have no illness sit moping and feeling sorry for myself whilst you, who have a lot to contend with, get out there and do things. Something wrong there. I guess I should get off my bum and motivate myself. I should know better (shame on me). Ray would be so cross with me and tell me to get out there and live. Keep the blogs coming Debs x Love Tricia x x
If I didn't laugh I truly would cry........you may not have an illness but you have lost the love of your life and maybe your focus right now too.....so whilst you are well, you are not whole. I am sure Ray would be cross but he'd also understand.
Try not to be so hard on yourself, you are one of the people here that have made me feel truly welcome and accepted. Baby steps friend and enjoy your trip to London, I am sure there will be tears of every kind but in amongst it all, I hope you also find a little peace in your very generous heart.
You truley are inspirational. I like you thought i would be right after my brain surg but things just seem to go from bad to worse for me. It has been a year since my diagnoses next month and i am physically and Mentally Exhausted, Your daily deliberations make me laugh and cry but most of all they keep me motivated to fight on.
