Debs Daily Deliberations - 22

"do a little dance, make a little noise" I'VE FINISHED RADIOTHERAPY = ALL 33 SESSIONS Just so as those who read yesterdays blog know, we never go to bed on an argument ;) Right back to today, I dressed for the occassion, my favourite white Monsoon linen shirt, black trousers and wrap = even painted my toenails...........finally the last session of radiotherapy had arrived, the treatment itself was not at all bad and the people administering it made it very pallitable but the getting up early and leaving the kids to get off to school by themselves every day for the last 7/8 weeks has been hard. I had bought thank you cards for all the machines and the reception, boxes of choccies etc. I had little mini boxes of chos for the 'ushers'.....Kim positively hugged me within an inch of me life LOL Pedro and Eric seemed chuffed that someone had singled them out to give a thank you gift to. Pedro quickly put his Lindt choccies into his uniform pocket and said he would eat them ALL himself........made me smile to think I had made their day. Onto LINAC 3, my favourite machine - well I say favourite they are all the same but my favourite operators work on this one and I had the majority of my treatment here. I flounced in after giving my date of birth for the 33rd day in a row and stood and tutted......"where are my balloons, where is the 'GOODBYE DEBS WE WILL MISS YOU' banner?"...Vicky and the operator from the simulator room laugh and say....."we had them but Health & Safety came along and made us take them down" - now as believable as that is.........LOL Finish my treatment and they prepare my mask to take home (remove my name label LOL) and I tell them how excited I am not having to slap the aqueous on and only wash the hair once a week......."welllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll" said the simulator nurse, "your treatment reaches it pinnacle 1 to 2 weeks after you finish here, so you must continue".........."no wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, I want a clean pillow back" ah well small price to pay I guess, I have NO side-effects at all. Now today is meet the oncologist day - we have learned about the waiting times, so we let them take our notes round to the waiting area and duck off to the coffee shop - naughty huh LOL While we are there at around 10.20am my oncologist walks through the front entrance to Queens and comes into the coffee shop and grabs a coffee to go..........Tony spots her and waits for her to make eye contact......she see's us but doesn't smile and hurries out. In a meeting my a$$, she wasn't even in the hospital!!!!! We saunter round and take a seat, the little registrar who is visibly scared of me, comes to collect us. I knew my oncologist wouldn't see me for the last time, especially as we left last week because she was late and today we catch her coming in at 10.20am and getting coffee! BUSTED!!!!!! He was very thorough and went through all the details and paperwork for me to start chemo by tablet form after my 4 week holiday. I sign the consent form and off we go...........freeeeeeeeeeeeeee for a month anyway ;) We head out to a little pub by the river and have a very nice combo platter lunch, which I got to choose what I liked and Tony got the rest LOL Outside there a pair of swans asleep with some sygnets tucked under the females wing - awwwwwwwwwww Its strange......I don't actually know how I feel, relieved, deflated..........happy that one more thing has been ticked off my list - or a little worried that I've had the treatment knowing it can never be repeated.........hmmmmmmmm may take some time to sink in. Thought for today: Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense. Ralph Waldo Emerson