Debs Daily Deliberations 168

Wednesday woke up feeling a lot better, "buttercup" was now lurking in the background, tapping me occassionally on the shoulder just to let me know she was about but enough for me to get focused and get on with stuff. I actually had all 3 kids at school yesterday, first time in a week! So after packing them off to school, feeding the dogs and clearing their "pressies" in the garden up, taking my pills in the right order I was off to Tesco's for fresh air, exercise and food. I wasn't going to be "poorly" today, I had decided already, fed up with feeling kack, so........gotta kick it into touch myself.

I wanted something nice for dinner, no evening commitments as such today, except Lara had a netball match after school. I settled on a nice piece of Welsh Mountain Lamb but knew the kids would go "ohhhhhh no not a roast in the week".....so I decided to do mash potato's (so not a real roast, clever mumma) to accompany it I bought organic broccoli, red onions & prepared butternut squash pieces, we also had carrots and baby button sprouts and another cheat (which I don't usually do) was a finest cauliflower cheese. Grabbed some bits for the kids school lunch for the next day and headed home. Text Tony with the dinner menu and he rings me up "are you sure you are upto this?"......bloody cheek, I've only got to throw the lamb in the oven and cook some veg...yes I am upto it!!!!! "great, sounds fab then" he then went on to ask me to look some karate stuff up on the net and see if it made sense to me (the person with a bit of brain missing)!!!

Virgin Broadband were having problems, couldn't access their website (which is my homepage) or my emails - the email thing annoys me most, I get daily reports from a few Brain Tumour groups I belong to and they have become part of my daily ritual. Anyway I get on with the washing which is stacking up already and vacuuming and am quite pooped by 11am, so I settle to watch another old episode of Bones, the new series starts on Sunday and its not something I used to watch but with all this time on my hands...why not? Had some cream cheese and crackers for lunch as wasn't feeling very hungry but know I should eat.......by early afternoon I felt the urge to have a cuppa tea - something I go right off during the chemo, usually only drink carbonated water & ginger beer. So I made myself a small cup of tea and had two choccy biscuits to help soak it up.

I manage to type up a 4 page leaflet style newsletter for Tony's club and have a proof printed off for him to check (he never really alters anything, he daren't LOL). Dinner is well and truly on the way and the lamb smells lovely. Lara phones to say she is on the way back to school and they lost 7-0....oops quite a butt whooping, but she got to mark one of her good friends from primary school and enjoyed it anyway. Sean smells the lamb and screws his face up saying "roast!!!! we had that Sunday"......I exclaim the subtle differences and he just shakes his head and goes back to his netbook. I have to say though, not one of them left a scrap of dinner. We all had a chocolate mousse for dessert and I looked at the washing up and thought - TOMORROW!!!

Tony and I walked the dogs up to his club partner's house for him to drop some paperwork off, only a short 10min walk there and then back but by 9.30pm I was ready for bed, so I decide to go and read some of the new Stephen King book I treated myself too (not really getting into Deception Point so will put that one on hold). Tony borrow's Lara's netbook and comes to bed with me to keep me company......nice thought but, he's sniffing and coughing still and the constant clicking of the mouse and keys irratated me in my tired sleepy state - but I bit my tongue, cos the thought was there, right LOL By 9.45pm I had put my book down and layed down to sleep, I don't think it was too long before Tony did the same. Two more days of chemo and the 4th cycle is done.