Well i don't know where i should post this because i do have questions, but not sure in which group to ask them!
I had a hysterectomy a few weeks ago now. I've recovered physically, but emotionally, well i just feel like crying all the time, and when I'm not crying, i just feel like its all an act.
And now i have to see doc again in about a week because he said the test results were worse than they had hoped. I'm not dumb, but i thought the cancer was gone with the hysterectomy?? So i am very scared. I cry myself to sleep each night, and just generally feel very sorry for myself.
Also, (and I'm not sure if all this should go in a first blog) i did have a fiancé up until 2 weeks before my op. He had moved out back to his mums because(he has told me since) he didn't really love me enough to want to be with me through all the cancer stuff. So obviously, logically, i am so so glad to have found that out now rather than 5 years down the line. But i just wish my heart would listen to logic!!
I know I'm tired and emotional because of the op, its just I'm not used to feeling this fragile. I am so scared.
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Hi , Of course you are feeling very emotional now, it is only natural, being told that you have cancer and having a big operation is traumatic enough but then for your fiance to go when you needed support is causing even more emotional problems,I really feel you are having so much to deal with and i hope you have other friends and family to help you now.
Regarding the operation, I too had cancer of the uterus and cervix and had a total hysterectomy 2 and a half years ago,I also thought that would be it but I had to have radiotherapy afterwards as I was told rogue cancer cells could still be in me and the treatment would kill these and mop up any problems,maybe this is what they will do for you too, if you do have to have further treatment it will be to make you well again so please think positive and good luck, let us know how you get on, Dee.
your going through so much just now, you will find comfort on here i hope, not because we can make it all go away, but because we have all had similar experiences, and can relate to what you are saying.
if you go into forums you will find people with the same type of cancer.
i have also had a hysterectomy, because of cancer in my uterus but for me that was not the main problem as i also have breast bancer which spread to my liver, so ..... i never really think about the one in my uterus, so i cant really give you any real feedback on it.
when its all new it is so hard to get your head around things, and i think anyone who says they didn`t want to cry all the time are fibbing to themselves, but that bit does pass, for me...... the way i look at it is,why waste time worrying when what ever will happen will happen, so i can either spend my time miserable..... or get on with enjoying life. i chose enjoying life, so ok its dominated with waiting around and hospital appointments, but in between, i do as much as i can.
You pour soul, what a rotten time you're having. I had a hysterectomy in Feb 2008, it turned out I had stage 3 endometrial cancer. I had Carboplatin (6 x 3 week cycles) then 20 sessions of radiotherapy. The staff were all wonderfully supportive and I managed to stay free from infection.
All my return visits have shown up no cancer which is great. I still have fairly low energy levels but I'm still here and smiling so far!
I'll be thinking of you & hope that the hormones & emotions settle to a much better level soon,
debretaw, Women having hysterectomies usually have the 'blues' about three days after their op. This is due to the hormone levels being all over the place. You however have added cause to be crying uncontrollably. Anyone in the midst of a break up would be extremely upset and to be told you have cancer and that they don't think they got a good enough clearance. You will understandably be absolutely distraught. I hope that whatever treatment options they offer you do the trick and that this is soon a distant memory. Make the most of times when you feel well and do the things you enjoy. Take care x x Patricia x x
