I have recently joined the community but have been "lurking" (is that the right word?) for a couple of days.
I think you're all amazing.
Unfortunately I am not new to cancer.
I was diagnosed with stage 2 ovarian cancer in October 2008. I had a CA125 of 348 before my hysterectomy. This level dropped to below 5 after my 2nd chemo dose and stayed there until Nov 2009. It's now on the increase and something is off, scans show a growing lymph node but no cancer elsewhere, or so they think. It's the waiting and not knowing that is getting to me. I have great faith in my doctors though I would prefer not to see them at all, but I feel emotionally empty. I don't think I can get any lower.
My CA125 is still normal but has gone up to 15, CT scans are inconclusive so there is no plan. I feel my cancer is returning and I'm just sitting around letting it do it's worst. I had a PET scan yesterday and find out the results of that on Monday, whilst I wait I just fill the gap with made up details that are so dark. I just can't get a positive head on me at all.
