my glass was always half full

Well, it has been sometime since I posted my profile. So I now feel it is high time to update it. I have now been clear for almost 4 years. Despite losing my husband to bowl cancer 18 months ago, I decided that i had to carry on living to the best of my ability. Last year, 2008, i decided to try to start rebuilding my life, so began with the decision to have a breast reconstruction. This went wrong after 8 weeks, due to a crease in the implant. So I had to have it completely undone. I came out of the hospital feeling like my life was heading down hill. Who would ever look at me again? No body i should think. So i found myself on the internet, adding myself to a dating site, what the heck was i thinking, but hay ho i let it run. Nothing interesting happened for 3 months. Then in December I met a most wonderful man. I could'nt believe that lightening could strike twice for good things. I was quite aware that it could strike twice when things were bad, but this was such a surprise to me. To have been married to such a wonderful guy for 26 years was amazing in its self. But to find yet another super guy seemed unbelievable. Anyway, Steve and I are getting married in June. Again, I never believed I could remarry but this is just so right. I am hoping to have my reconstruction completed before June, but have probs there because the pct are not sure they want to pay to have my good breast lifted to match the new one. But fingers crossed that when they meet on the 14th April, that they will approve the whole operation and things can get moving soon after. So please dont give up hope whatever your situation. There really is light at the end of the tunnel. I wish you all the very best. with much love