2010???

Hey Deb listen,

Dont apologise if you are feeling low - its allowed, I too am feeling sad tonight.  I have been through what you are going through and I understand your feelings and emotions, somehow tonight (being the beginning of a new year) has sparked something in me and heightened my feelings.

I dont really know what to say other than you will find lots of support and like minded people on this site and I am thinking of you and sending you much love and hugs

Bec xx

Ps black labs also give the best cuddles when you need them most - mine does x

Deb

You aren't alone and don't be afraid to write the stuff you've written on the first post. We too fought this horrible disease once only for it to come back with a vengeance and inoperable. I have my black despairing moments which I hide from him and this site is such a relief. So many people share or understand what you're going through and you're not alone in more than one respect.

So yes here's to 2010 and I too hope it brings peace, comfort and hope to us all. And don't give up hope or be afraid to let your feelings out, even if its only on here.

I wish you and your husband all the very best

Claire x

PS The gin has gone down a treat!!

I have not been on this site for a couple of weeks, so to Claire and Bec, thank-you so much for your lovely kind thoughts and so sorry I have not been in contact.

I find this site very difficult at times, I guess it reminds me of the bleak facts  and I am still trying to avoid it.

Allan has had his PET scan and I have the DVD!!!

Thats what you get when you have PMI... a free DVD

I have now seen with my own eyes where the tumours are and its now feels very real. Medical background means I know what the scan is showing

I am am trying to be strong and face up to the facts.

My dogs are all my comfort and joy now. all our plans for the future are disappearing, rather like the snow, and ice.

What I cant cope with is anyone talking about the future, as I dont' see one