ok so its sunday morning, im 5 days post op, lumpectomy and node removal, im delighted i can move my arm do my exercises, just washed my hair (big thing for me, anything but dirty hair) had a sort of shower, dressed sat with feet up, surronded by flowers, cards etc, so why do i feel so crap?Everyone has popped round seen im managing, exclaimed how well i look, and thats it! i still have 4 weeks to wait to find out if 'they got it all' then radiotherapy, am i just feeling sorry for myself, is post op blues, who knows, but i need to 'say' these things and from past experience people dont want to hear this side only want you to say 'im fine' which we do to make them feel better. At least tennis starts next week so i can watch that without making up reasons not to go out as other years!
