I remember the joys of last years fresher's week very well, everything was so exciting, meeting all these new people, going out and having a good time and generally having too much to drink as a result. This time round I don't think I have ever felt so miserable.
Leaving my mum with terminal cancer last Saturday was excruciatingly difficult. She was diagnosed in February whilst I was at university she decided to tell me on 16th August (a day I don't think ill ever forget). I hate being away from her it depresses me so much cause I could see her condition getting worse before I left. I haven't told any of my flatmates what's been going on and whilst they're going out having a good time I just stay in the house by myself.
I make sure I phone mum every day now just to cheer her up I know she struggles a lot too. But if Im being perfectly honest, I don't know if I can stay away from her for much longer. I don't want to tell my flatmates I don't really want the attention but I'm feeling so isolated as a result. Its only a matter of time before people ask questions about why I've become so unsociable and I really don't know how to respond when they ask.
Right now I just want to get on the next train back home.
