It's been happening to me a lot that ever since I was diagnosed with cancer, people just seem to know exactly what my physical status is. For example a few days ago, my best friend's ex-bf contacted me on the msn messenger, to ask me how am I doing. My best friend has fibromyalgia and after much consideration he decided that he can't marry her because he's scared of taking care of her for the rest of their lives, so he broke up with her 2 months ago and since then I haven't seen him or heard from him.
So anyways, I answered "fine, how are you?". So he kept on asking, "no how are you really?"
I answered everything's ok. And then I finally understood what he was really asking 'how's your cancer doing?'
So I went into detail : bone scan came out very good, it showed that the treatment is working out for me, there were less tumors and some decrease in size, and then there's the blood test which showed some increase in one of the markers - ca-125 which I don't know if it's significant I have to ask the onc. And it was so weird for me that he really wanted to know all these details, that I am actually fed up with keeping track of them.
Also, a month ago at the holiday (passover which is around easter), my ex-bf called to say happy holidays and.... how am I doing, and then asking again so I gave him the full info about test results etc. etc.
He broke up with me in a horrible way last November. We had an argument and then he disappeared, he wouldn't call, he didn't answer my phone calls for 2 weeks until I sent him a text urging him to tell me what he wants to do from here on. He finally called and it took some time and lots of nervous pauses for him to tell me it was over. We dated for 10 months and we knew each other for years. And then he calls me to ask how I'm doing and how's the cancer doing. I guess I wouldn't mind going over my physical status with people who genuinely care for me and are there for me at good times as well as bad times. I really don't know why I even care. I think I'll erase this post later, it doesn't make much sense.
