I learned today that my friend is in a hospice and 'uncommunicative', probably a coma. We are 'estranged' as they say, do to a probably chemo inspired spat that involved old issues, that surfaced. Uncertainty=stress I've learned.
Devastated, I got the news from Canada's social services, as they were prob trying to figure what to do with her kids. I'm still unsure of what I can do, if anything. Watching my neighbour's kids grow up has been like watching a trainwreck, in slow motion. These kids have been neglected all their lives, I tried to help them, maybe too hard, I will admit. I don't regret it, and won't.
I feel so helpless, I can't be there for them right now, tonight. They did become almost like my own at one point, due to Mom's drug abuse, and no Dad around. If my kids (I don't have any) were going thru this, I would bust through anything, to be there with them.
Sorry for rant, had to unload. It's very difficult right now.
