Can't sleep...

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FormerMember

7 Oct 2010

Hi all,

I just joined the site and decided to put all my thoughts into words, hoping to feel better and be able to sleep a bit better tonight.

In May this year, I found out that my dad has lung cancer. Only a few weeks ago the doctor confirmed that there's no option for surgery and he'll start a therapy to slow down the cancer (after he'll complete this chemio cycle). The news made my world fall into pieces... When I heard the first diagnosis in May (when there was still the possibility of surgery), I really hoped we could fight this and that he was going to be fine. After the surgery got postponed, I still didn't want to admit it was serious and I wanted to keep a straight face for my two younger sisters. But the news from a few weeks ago was too much to handle!

After a few days in tears, I feel a bit better and I carry on with my everyday life. My main problem is that I feel so stupid for thinking my dad could have survived lung cancer. I'm trying to accept it, but it's SO hard. How can I accept that I'm going to loose him?

PS: A week ago I raised some money for MacMillan by selling cakes at work... that made me feel better!

FormerMember over 14 years ago

Hi Agnese,

I very sorry to hear about your Dad .Telling your Family is not an easy thing to do. But ifyou could get them all together and have a Family talk explain whats going on with you Dad.

He will need all the support,love and Caring you all can give him. You should not feel stupid about his Lung Cancer. This is something no one can handle,

and whose to say that his treatment wont slow things down.With this disease you just cant tell.

My thoughts and strength are with you and your Family.

Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xx
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

Hi Agnese,

Sorry to hear the sad news about you Dad - but congratulations in taking the big step in joining the site and explaining just how you feel - the first blog is always the hardest.

First welcome to the site - non of us wanted to join but you will be so glad you have. We are a mixture of Patients, Carers, Family and Friends that have been affected by Cancer in some way.

You will find all of the information support and care you need from people who really do understand - they have been there or may even be there now themselves.

Cancer is scarry and sadly in some cases we know not all of us will beat it - but nothing is cast in stone and every case is different and responds differently to various treatments. Please try to stay positive and learn the hardest lesson - one day at a time and try to treasure each day your Dad is with you.

Some people don't get the chance to remind people they love them - so don't spend time wondering what might happen, build some happy memories.

The other major point is you are not alone on your journey - you will meet some fantastic people on here who want nothing more than to offer help and support - so never feel you have to be alone. Welcome to the Mac Family

Hugs

John x
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

p.s. - Well done with the fund raising !!

J x
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

Hi both,

thanks so much for your replies. Yes, joining the site was a really good step for me. It makes me feel a little less lonely and feels so good.

Unfortunately my parents dediced not to tell my little sister about what's happening (she's 15), so it's very difficult to talk with anyone. My fiancee is really supportive, but most of the time he doesn't know what to say (of course, I wouldn't!), so write a blog is actually the best way I have at the moment to express what I feel. I'm so glad I found this community!

Thanks again for your comments.

Agnese
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