Moonface & The Slippery Slip

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FormerMember

14 Jan 2012

My dad is sleeping a lot at the moment.

I read him a few chapters of The Magic Faraway Tree a few nights ago, the story he read to me and my brother night after night when we were young. It meant so much to me. But it was the ultimate bedtime story, knocked him out for days! I didn't see him awake for 2 days after that. You would think I would have learnt my lesson... but when I finally got some time with him last night I read him a few more chapters, and now he is back frolicking in the land of nod with Moonface & co.

I can say it as a joke because I've got my guard up at the moment; the shield that stops my mind from racing, my chest from tightening, my hands from shaking. Its a coping mechanism they say, but I can't help but feel I give off a carefree vibe when I speak this way, when deep inside I care so very much. It kills me that some days I can't sit with him, and talk with him, even if just for a short time.

When time is it's most precious with him, it suddenly feels so limited.

FormerMember over 13 years ago

Lovely photo Vixylou.So sorry about your Dad.Do you live close by? HUGS xxxxx
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FormerMember over 13 years ago

Hi Vixylou. My Dad is very very poorly too. I have started a blog. I think sharing memories together is so important and what a lovely idea with the story book, xxx
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FormerMember over 13 years ago

Hi Guys,

Janique, I live with my dad so I can pop my head in to see him whenever I like, but its just not the same as being able to sit and chat with him.

Claireev, I find the blog therapeutic at times, just to get out those feelings that are building up inside. Other times though its the last thing I want to do, sometimes when I'm happy I just want to avoid the thoughts because I don't want to deal with them. Its sad because a lot of the time I only write when I'm down so people don't see the ups and normal life. Memories definitely brighten the day though, even though they hurt so much at the same time
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FormerMember over 13 years ago

Hi Claire and VixyLou

I too am in the throes of loosing a parent - my mama. I don't know how to cope with the knowledge that her brain tumour is going to take her. They have given her months rather than weeks as the steroids will stop working in 8-10 weeks. I am so scared, how are you both dealing with your emotions? I feel bad coming to work but I need the money whilst she can still walk around (just). I feel really alone as none of my friends has lost a parent. I'd love to hear from you. x Claire
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FormerMember over 13 years ago

Hi Oberli,

I deal with my emotions by just crying when I need to cry. After I have cried I am ok again. Its horrible but you can't bottle it inside. If you need to cry, you have to cry. And as for work, I still work. I think I will work right until the very end, until I need to be by his side. Work has been what has kept me going, its been my distraction, but as well I have some great friends at work that I can talk to about it. I have found the best way to cope is to live as normally as possible. None of my close friends have lost a parent either, as much as they are there for me, they can't truly know how I'm feeling or what I'm going through. I don't know how I'll go on, or how I'll cope but everyone on here seems to have managed somehow, you have to let them give you hope and strength and confidence that you can go on.
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