Well, we survived the first Christmas without Dad, it felt weird and I definitely didn't feel in the Christmas spirit at all. I would much rather have hibernated until the New Year when all the hype and fuss was over.
Mum had a little wobble on Christmas Day but I think she is finally letting a bit out. She admits herself that she was never allowed to show her feelings, she puts it down to old stiff upper lip parents and boarding school. Personally, I would explode if I couldn't express myself.
My best friend lost her Mum just before Christmas 2009, so she knows exactly what I'm going through, i don't need to explain anything to her, she just gets it.
I just hope 2011 will be calmer and happier.
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