So I get a phone call on new years eve from my mum to say dad has got mouth cancer :( safe to say I am cut up to bits about it, I am in Devon he is in Scotland and I want to go back there to be by his side but he says there is nothing I can do!! I feel so guilty and helpless!!! I haven't been the perfect daughter and have often been nasty to him in the past and know all I feel is regret!! dad gets his results tomorrow on whether or not the cancer has spread...I hope to god not!!! going to be a very anxious day!! his appoitment is at 9am so I am going to worry all day, I have told him not to let me know till the evening as I don't want to be a wreck at work....not going to get much sleep tonight!!
