Well I'm hugging my chest wall too tightly with a 6cm tumour that it's impossible for my surgeon to prise away.
Limbo land has been my home for four months now, it's a nice place actually, no Covid, no lovers, nobody being horrible to me just in case my demise is imminent and their malicious tongue should cause my sudden expiration, oh!and lots of Toblerone. Even my children bite their respective tongues 
before telling me to 'stop going on' as I do my motherly nagging or have a bitchfest because Cancer is making me grumpy and fatter. Why am I the only person with breast cancer seemingly gaining a pound a day??? NO KIDS, IT IS NOT THE TOBLERONE THAT IS THREE QUID AT B&M SO GET ME MORE!!!
Anyway Palbociclib and Letrozole don't seem to be shrinking ANYTHING so I'm keeping on taking them until I see my wonderful oncologist at the end of July and see what's next. Its also in a lymph node
so both tumours seem happy where they lurk.They can stay forever as far as I'm concerned if they sit quietly and don't interrupt my lifestyle but my surgeon says nope, that's not how they roll...
I'm desperately wanting to go to Rhodes next May for a 7 day all inclusive holiday where Jane Macdonald sings especially to me ( no, sings to me only, not the Jason and Kylie 
song) but everyone ( friends and family) look aghast when I suggest their company. Do they think I'm popping my clogs before I get a chance to pop on my heels?
I have been thinking about making post Covid plans, obviously not the same sort as they have been planning? No I am not being driven to Andover, cremated and bought back home in an Urn to save on 'fancy funeral costs....I'm going to Rhodes in Estee Lauder, very much alive thank you. Instead of an Urn I may bring back an Ern!!! Except I rather think Letrozole has put paid to any amorous involvement on my behalf, I think I'd only give Vin Diesel a second glance if he was on the chocolate aisle in B&M.
Anyway goodnight and good fortune to all who read this as you are only reading this as we are in the same boat 
...let's hope its going to Rhodes next May
