Well its been a while since I joined this group, since then Fran has started his chemo 2 out of 6 so far, his third was put off as his blood was low so he's back in this week. He also starts his Radiotheraphy as well
Life is now very strange, up and down like a rollercoaster.
Fran is still in denial, talking about doing things , moving house so we can have our dream house with a bit of land. Buying more equipment for the garage . Its great he's so positive, but thats because he does not know anything or want to know anything about what he has. Who am I to burst that bubble, he's happy.
Me, I feel on a razor edge, I don't let him see me cry, I go out to walk the dog or go in the shower. i can't sleep, or think straight. My work is suffering as my mind is not in it and find it hard to concentrate on the most simple tasks these days.
I just hope he stays well as he is for a long time.I scare myself rigid when I read up on the pack the hospital has given us, I just have to be strong for him.
FormerMember
Hi Cornishmaid,
Your posting rang so many bells with me because of my experiences with relatives dealing with cancer. We all handle things in our own way: my brother-in-law (who also had mesothelioma) was completely in denial, my father-in-law (who had oesophageal cancer) was also in denial, my sister (who had breast cancer) was completely the opposite and recognised exactly what was going to happen. I'm sure fancy pyschotherapists would give you a lengthy explanation but my my take on it is that sometimes denial is the only way people can handle the situation. It is very hard for the carers and know my sister wanted to shake her husband into accepting the reality but eventually realised denial was his way of coping. Saying that, I don't think you need to 'scare yourself rigid' - many patients have long periods of remission and may in fact die of something else completely unrelated.
I am currently in remission from breast cancer so I come to this with experience from both sides of the coin. Do allow yourself time for a good cry and remember there is always someone here to listen to and support you.
Well here we are at nearly the end of chemo, things are going well . He is positive as ever, which is great. We are hoping to get a holiday soon to give us both a break that we need.
Its scary that we have been told that after treatment 6 and a scan 6 weeks after , we just wait and see what happens. Fran is delighted not to have to go to the hospital, I just feel unnerved. All I can do is pray for remission. #
When he was diaognosed in Feb, I thought we may not get this year in, but the year has flown by , and I try and enjoy every moment we have together.
Can some one tell me about the treatment in Frankfurt?
