My Brother

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Oh bless him- he has always been the one we humour, the one we pamper , the one we like to make smile.  He has had some of the of worst news you could get. GBM grade 4- can't operate- have some chemo- they said- we'll keep you well as long as possible- they said- how long is that? No answer...So he accepts it- he smiles- he can't talk now- the tumour has taken that away.  But in there somewhere is my brother, and I love him.

He may live 120 miles away- but we can sort that- with the help of an understanding husband, and an understanding employer . He's only 36- but he accepts it all- not sure I can though. I am angry, I cannot forgive, I cannot accept, I cannot see the positive.

But I could win an Oscar when trying to hold up my parents, and my sister, I can be benevolent to the outside world anyway.

Where on the internet does it tell you how to cope with all this?

I've read the blogs- and I admire you all- but I cannot accept this- he's my little brother and I cannot fix this for him.

 

 

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Thank you all so much for your comments- Its reassuring to know folks out there are feeling the same way- and doing best to enjoy the time we have left with our loved ones.

    Am off to see him this weekend- got latest batch of scan results- tumour still growing- but towards his forehead now- not sure what it means - or what he'll lose next- but gotta love him, and make him smile as best I can.

    xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi

    I'm in a similar situation. My 64yo dad has an inoperable and terminal Stage IV GBM. He is undergoing palliative RT and chemo. My mum is doing so well caring for him but is understably exhausted, frustrated, worried etc etc. I am doing my best to be upbeat and positive but in the wee small hours when I'm up feeding my baby I allow myself to give in to my grief.

    Sometimes when everything else is lost, all we have left is hope and I sort of feel like I owe it to my dear old dad to believe in him and fight for him as to not do so would be akin to giving up on him.

    Sorry for rambling, I'm not sure I'm making much sense tonight.

    Thinking of you.