6th March
It's been a couple of days of mixed emotions. I always thought that I was an optimist however I've thought about making a will which is something that we always keep meaning to do and every twinge down below makes me think that this hidden horror is erupting after laying unnoticed for I don't know how long. Even now it is spreading its mutated cells throughout my body to infect other innocent organs- well these are the things that I'm thinking about along with the positives like it might be benign, we've caught it in time and maybe I might still get on the Jolly Boys trip in May. The support from family and friends is amazing with loads of texts of best wishes which is great if I could reply. I'm just crap at texting
Back to Thornbury Hospital again today for 2 scans, the first an MRI and the second a CT. It was a beautiful day, the sun shining so it was nice to sit out between scans to drink my litre of chateau barium blanc and listen to Coldplay's Pardise before the CT scan.
Results consultation is tomorrow night at 7pm so I'm only in No Man's Land for one more day
