Well my boy has had his fourth lot of chemo and now is is really taking affect. His whole attitude has changed and not for the better. I keep telling him off when he starts which i feel horrible doing but i dont want him to think that it is ok to act that way. I tell him i love him always but there are times i dont like the way he acts he has started on his wee sister which isnt fair on her. She is only 6 and doesnt even understand why her big brother is acting that way. Itell her its the bad medicine going in to kill the bad bug in him but that really upsets her. I am trying to be strong but i feel like the world is against me the now.
My dad isnt doing good still not eatng and being sick all the time. Started to collapse alot the marie curie offered him to go in and he said no. I think hes scared incase he doesnt come out. They have told him they can only control his pain now so it is a matter of time. He doesnt want to see the kids which is hard on them. I love him so mch and im so scared incase i not as strong as i think i am. He already told me ive to be the strong one and not to break as the rest of the family will. I have the kids to be strong for. I dont know if i can do that im my daddy baby girl, and the baby of the family.
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your having such a hard time from all sides, having chemo as an adult is not easy and as adults we have the ability to be polite even when we dont feel like it, whereas your son probably just acts how he feels, there were times when i wanted to tell my well intentioned friends and family to bog off and leave me alone, but i didn`t... or told them nicely to do so...ha ha,dont be afraid of not being strong enough, you already proved you are, to be coping with this for one person is hard enough, and you have to cope for your son and dad, in my book you deserve a medal. good luck, stay strong. liz xxxxx
Yoiu poor thing, you have so much to deal with and it must surely be taking it's toll on you. You know we are here to support you when you need us. It must hurt when you son is taking things out on his little sister, but the poor kid doesn't understand what is happening to him either, and doesn't understand why he is being the way he is.
You have the strength of an ox choc, I don't know how you cope, is there someone who can give you some time out for yourself. Your dad is only thinking of the kids as he doesn't want them to remember him being ill, he wants them to have good memories of him, but I understand how hard that must be for them, and you. I do think about you often and I admire your strength. My thoughts are with you, Keep strong you are doing a great job.
You poor love having to deal with all this, its such a lot for anyone to go through let alone a child so not surprising that his behaviour has changed. Can you get any support from someone which will allow him to offload some of his anger and fear away from you and his sister?
I agree with Jo, your Dad probably doesn't want the children to remember him in pain, he wants to preserve the good memories.
You are strong and you will cope, but give yourself some time as well, you still need to look after you!
I just don't know what to say so I will just send you a big (((((((((((HUG)))))))))))))) and hope you find the strength you need to keep you going. x x x x
