Today is Sunday 30th September 2012 and the day I hoped would never arrive. At 4.30pm today my dear sweet, stubborn, hard-working, courageous and brave mum decided that enough was enough and she did not want to stay in this world any longer. She tried so hard to hold on until my sisters arrived to be with her, but god's call was to great and she was pleased to go to him. Her breathing was very laboured for about half an hour, then she opened her eyes and looked towards the window. From the look on her face, which was very calm and peaceful, I could tell she could see something. I said to her, was she looking at the light. It was then that I realised what I had said, and she was indeed looking at the light, but not the light that I could see. Suddenly her breathing became very shallow and she slowly drifted away from me. The last 4 days of mums life have been very difficult for her, but in the end God was kind enough to take her gently and peacefully.
Its a strange thing but even having been with her, you may think that its easier to accept the reality that she has finally left us to cope alone, but I still keep expecting the hospice to call and say she's pulled through yet again and is asking for her chocolate and battenburg cake to be brought in.
Love you Mum, now and forever. xxx
