Starting to feel like a yoyo. Up one minute then crashing back down. My emotions are in a turmoil.
Mum health and state of mind is declining but we're still unsure just how long she has got left. Last week she had a heart attack. Went into Taunton Hospital where they put in 3 stents to keep her valvues open. She's now back home and feeling quite good but very weak, and another ton of tablets to take. She still expects me to be able to run back and forth looking after her and its getting emotionally and physically harder and harder for me to not tell her how much pain I'm in.
Have done some lovely coastal walkes with my husband this month and had 3 days in London with a friend. Went to the National Gallery, Covent Garden and Hampton Court. Had a lovely time but it has shattered me.
My spine is now very painful and I'm continually stuffing paracetamols. I've promised myself that I will find the time this week to get it checked out with my GP.
Looking forward to starting College on 13th September but very nervous about being able to cope.
