Todays (tonights) blog is bitter sweet really. The last couple of days have been really difficult for me emotionally. I think it was after my appointment Monday and the impending start of treatment that everything has hit me like a ton of bricks. I didnt go to work yesterday, I really panicked about 5 minutes before I was due to go. I had to get some space so I just went off for the afternoon, then everyone got worried which I didnt intend on. They have given me the week off but I really dont know if I want to go back....maybe its all just too much? I had a good cry when I got home but I'm still feeling really down and I have a sore throat so I think I'm run down too. Thats the bitter...
The sweet is my husband and I are going to NEW YORK on the 10th September for a long weekend and I cant bloody wait!! Its my absolute dream!! And thanks to my parents for paying for it all or we would never be able to afford it ourselves. Now need to get the Diazepam for the flight, for the record I dont mind flying but have always taken a pill so I think I wouldnt like it if I didnt take one....its all in my head you see??!!
