Well I was in a fowl mood all day yesterday!! Dont know why but I just was. Took the kids to town to buy a pumpkin and some last minute things for Halloween and they were like little devils!!! I was pulling my hair out. When I was first diagnosed 2 years ago I told myself I would let nothing bother me, I wont get stressed blah blah....and that sooooo didnt happen. Thinks still P me off as much as they always have and I still find it very hard to cope sometimes.
So by the time I got home my head was swimming and I sent them all upsatairs to get some peace(and calm down). My hubby has been working all weekend which he doesnt normally and he is doing a night shift all this week so I am going solo and the pressure is on. But we are really struggling financially since I left my job and needs must. I keep thinking I might go back or try to look for something but I dont have the energy to be a full on Therapist again, maybe the nail treatments and facials but the massaging 20 stone body builders would defo be OFF the list!! Besides people expect a lot from us humble beauticians believe it or not and by that I mean they want to dump on you all their problems and it can be very draining. Then on the other hand you get the ones who say such lovely things like 'your daughter will love having you around when shes older so you can do all her treatments for her' and I just wanna burst into tears because I know it wont happen. So for now I will have to settle for my job taming these 3 little monsters because no matter what they say or do I still love them and that makes it worthwhile.
Went off on one a bit there lol. We had a great time trick or treating last night, the kids got loads of sweeties. Then we went to a friends pub for a party and they had karaoke on which I LOVE. Dan took the kids home at about 9.30 and I stayed as I wanted to have a sing song. I ended up having 4 glasses of wine which is the most I have had for a while and thankfully I feel ok today cos I have to cook dinner for my mum and dad!!
Happy Sunday everyone...hope you are all well, relaxing and enjoying your day.
Love Chrissi xxx
