After my post the other day I telephoned my oncologist, Dr Moody's secretary. I explained to her the problem about the MUGA but that I really wanted to still see Dr Moody on Monday to get the CT results as I find these really hard to wait for. She said she would speak to Dr Moody that afternoon then call me back (this was Wednesday) to let me know what she wanted to do. Anyway I didnt hear anything until Friday...I had a voicemail on my mobile. It was the secretary saying that they hadnt been able to do anything about the MUGA but that Dr Moody still wanted to see me Monday morning.
So now I'm thinking that the reason she didnt call back straight away is Dr Moody has looked at my CT and there is something wrong so she needs to see me and the MUGA will no longer be an issue. I know I've got what I wanted eg keeping the appointment but I am panicking now. My hubby keeps trying to reassure me but its really not doing any good. Once a thought is there its there and until I get those results I'm not going to feel better. I am so exhausted this week and I think its the worry but I just cant help feeling something is up.
Also one of the girls I work with her mum has BC and has had some bad news this week and I think that didnt help. Yesterday was an emotional day all round. I felt awful as I didnt know what to say to her althought I felt I should know....if her mum had been sat there with me then that would have been a different matter. And to top it all off the girl I have been covering for at work is stuck in Tenerife and I have to do extra hours next week. I should have said no really as I am finding it hard going but they have been really good to me. Its just been a really difficult week.
