part 3 only just hitting me

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FormerMember

8 Jun 2010

hi evry1

I was diagnosed 1oth May,and only just now realising its not actually someone else im talking about,its me!i've been walking around with a smile on my face trying to cheer those up around me,cracking jokes about the situation.however now my mood seems to be up and down.i dont want to be breaking down,(not that i think thats not ok)its just not how i deal with things.But things have never been this serious b4.Cancer has never effected our family.
I dont know if this is because my MRI scan is due on the 17th and my op on the 21st?The mri however is a worry,had nightmares recently that i had skin cancer aswell,as i am quite molely (it definately makes ya a little paranoid),prob with all the anxiety and things goin on in my head :roll:
I've actually been on a bit of a mission getting all the women i know to book a smear,(i work in a salon so meet a lot of women).Was actually really disgusted with being told that one of my clients,being 21 and having all the symptoms has been refused a smear.She was actually told if she wanted one she would have to go private and pay.i was appalled,if ya request a smear u should be given one!Even tho i had no symptoms i asked for one last yr to be told i didnt need one if had no symptoms!WRONG!but there's no point me looking at the what ifs now!
I feel so useless and want to help in any way.....(see my mood went bit angry there haha)

i hope all going through treatment are keeping strong,and everyone else going through this challenging time keep smiling

love 2 ya all
will be back on after my MRI xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

FormerMember over 14 years ago

Hi missjaxx, I presume you live in England as I know up here in Scotland women are given smear test from age 20 onwards. I know there has been a campaign ongoing to have younger women tested. I think it is disgraceful that they do not test younger women as there have been loads of cases highlighted of younger women with cervical cancer. My daughter had an abnormal smear aged 21 and had the abnormal cells burned out. She is lucky that she lives in Scotland, if she had to wait till she was 25 for a smear it could well have progressed from pre-cancerous to cancer.

I wish you well with your MRI and subsequent treatment. Take care. Christine xx
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

Sorry to hear what you are both saying. I think it is the post code lottery as usual as where I live if you are sexually active then you can have a smear test. Love Juliexx
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

hey Missjax,

I was diagnosed with an ovarian germ cell tumour aged 21- I reacted the same way (and kept it up till Christmas weirdly). Anyway, I just wanted to say, with the mri and worrying- I did that too- I was convinced I had a long list of different cancers on top of this one. It's natural ( I think).

I always feel like I'm really unhelpful when I post to peoples blogs! I'm just trying to tell you, you're not alone. I know its a different cancer but neither are very nice.

Hope the mri goes ok- if you get freaked out in them I found the easiest thing is to think about something really dodgy! Then you spend your time worrying the mri can pick up your thoughts and the nurses know what you're thinking instead being worried about the machine!

Also, I hope the surgery goes well.lx
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FormerMember over 14 years ago

Hi Ya Missjax,

Dont go getting your self in a state.Wait until all the

tests are done and you have had the result of your MRI scan back.

Then you can take it from there. Good Luck.

Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xxx
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