Long story short but I had some bleeding whilst on my HRT patches.. nothing else. Every smear I have had has been normal. I spoke to my doctor who advised stopping the patches immediately and going in for an examination. The minute I took the patch off the bleeding stopped. I went to the doctors thinking it must have just been the patches as I have no problems otherwise.
I had an examination and was extremely shocked to be told my cervix looks unhealthy and I would be referred for to Gynaecology for an urgent hysteroscopy. This was 2 weeks ago and my appointment is scheduled for 16 June. It doesn't help that I work in the NHS and so obviously get to see and hear things that are not pleasant.
I am scared stiff. I am struggling to eat, I am finding it hard to sleep and my anxiety is going up a notch. By the time of the appointment I am worried that I will have to go off sick from work with the stress of it all. I just don't know what to expect and didn't expect to find myself in this situation. It has come as a bit of a shock. I am already dreading the worst and I am convinced that I have cancer and I just don't know how to cope. It doesn't help that my mother died 6 years ago of uterine cancer and I know my maternal grandmother had womb cancer too so I am just convinced that it is my turn now.
How do I get through the next two and a half weeks. I feel so depressed and I am snapping at everyone. Should I take time off work to look after myself and do some sleeping to shut off or should I carry on regardless. I am snapping at patients on the phone which is not like me at all. I am usually such a happy patient person.
