Loss of another kind

Oh Cella, yes cancer changes everything I know and some of us do manage to get back what was taken away and some of us don't. My life was almost ended last year, no hope, no future, nothing but I have been lucky if you can call it that. I hated cancer and still do, I went from a strong, fit woman to a shell, a former shadow  of myself and I fought it with everything thing I had inside. Maybe for me it was watching my father dying of cancer when I was a child, maybe loosing my best friend who died a month before of cancer, nursing cancer patients has an adult or loosing other friends and my eldest brother and sister from this evil desease, I don't know but what I did know was that it wasn't going to get me so easily and I was angry, that is angry with cancer.

I am coming back to life and I don't take anything for granted anymore, I am not cured but in remission for the time being. What does the future hold, who knows for any of us. You are angry and why shouldn't you be, anger helped me. I wish you well my love...........Carol x

Oh, I know just how you feel.  I just exist from one check-up to the next.  I cram all my apointments into two months and then spend the next month worrying!!  I just can't get my head around the fact that I feel so well, but keep having surgery as this evil disease is inside me.

Gill x