Sometimes it seems like the agony is never going to be over. One new thing after another for me to the point that the unexpected is the norm. But what it has done is make me hypervigilent about my body and any new 'symptom' makes me like a deer in the headlights. Last week after chemo #5 I thought I was having a reaction and went right to the hospital...boom. The docs are still not sure what happened but I feel pretty certain that I did. From there we develop pneumonia and get tapped for #12 and #13 thoracenteses. They are making grumblings about putting in semi-permanent (removed if no longer needed) lung ports. I get to drain them at will, I guess, I still don't have enough info to even be talking about them...so I won't. And today work called me to say they will be posting my job...I can have 'A' job, but not necessarily the one I left. So, even though I have had worse days my gratitude is that my blood pressure is down to the point where I haven't taken any pills for 2 missed doses now...maybe that is a good thing???...lol Who knows? I'm still smiling though...you have to when things get too absurd...wagging my finger at you...and you know what I mean...lol
